Cheating Lovers F*cking Suck!
I'm fucking ready for bed. I'm pissed. My bf left me alone tonight to go stay with his "friend" so he could get up early and look for a job *cough bullshit cough* This friend made it obvious he want's down my bf's pants. My bf tries to make it obvious to me that he isn't interested but so what i'm crazy jealous lol. He comes home with money, the dude gave him a CAR, i'm absolutely not allowed to ever go with him "because i complain too much for them to enjoy themselves." argh I hate being a jealous bitch but neon signs are hard to ignore lol. I love the part where he always asks if i have a logging program too and goes absolutely insane if i won't let him use the local gay.com chatroom. RELATIONSHIPS SUCK! I want to go to sleep but i'm all stressed and feeling nasty over the usual bullshit. Prozac anyone?
What sucks is the more jealous you get, the more they accuse you of just making shit up and being crazy, and turn it around on you. So you have to wonder if you are just crazy, or if the signs are all true, and then he says the signs wouldn't be there if you weren't crazy, and you say you wouldn't be crazy if the signs weren't there...
...and you set up all night trying not to think about it but not being able to sleep either!
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I made my own bed, but I wouldn't even have a bed to sleep in without him right now. Codependence is total shit isn't it? I need to get some glasses and get a fucking life! I'm ready to go jump in the river or sell my ass for cash just to get the fuck out of here. I burned every bridge on the way in so i'm going to have to swim my way out. Advice anyone? And don't say "Be strong, you'll make it or anything" I mean "do this, then this, then this" advice, I'm totally clueless on where to start. I can't get a job, I have no friends/family I could stay with, no money, no car. What are the options? (I'm not kidding myself, i realise there are none, but maybe one of you has an idea i'm not capable of, thats pretty damn possible!)
LOL can you tell i'm half out of it by now?
Re: Cheating Lovers F*cking Suck!
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Originally posted by DigitalJay
I can't get a job, I have no friends/family I could stay with, no money, no car. What are the options? (I'm not kidding myself, i realise there are none, but maybe one of you has an idea i'm not capable of, thats pretty damn possible!)
LOL can you tell i'm half out of it by now?
you CAN get a job, quit lying to yourself.. be truthful with yourself about why you can't get a job.. if it's because you're lazy then just admit it and move on.. you can turn things around in a matter of months if you really want to. Tomorrow go to the local human services office and see what they can do for you.. that's a start