1.) When I started in this business, I wanted to do straight bdsm fetish material that honored the models and depicted them as real people rather than objects. I was really proud of my site. Because of this, I met a lot of REALLY great people, sex-intellectuals, writers, fetish folk - it was like my site was making the world a better place!

2.) The worst thing for me also trusting someone I shouldnt have, and losing my site... and, because I had been so closed - I didnt spend enough time developing relationships. I didnt know enough folks to lean on for good advice .... and it cost me. Now, I work a lot harder on developing good relations with folks I like and I can trust!

3.) You didnt ask for 3 - but the best thing about losing my site was this: I moved over and started working with gay sites.... and I like this side of the industry, and the people in it, much much better. The gay community is much more sex positive, I never hear models referred to in any derogatory manner - ever, and it feels like a better, lovlier, cleanier and happier working enviroment, all the way around!