drama documentary LOL yeah i'm a big drama queen I know, and like I said I made my own bed so I swear these aren't boohoo pooooor me posts. Just venting.

As far as a job goes, being half blind makes me pretty dangerous at a job, not to mention I live in the country and my car is DEAD. Even if it wasn't i'd die trying to drive myself to town. Too far to walk/bike too.

So I can't go anywhere unless HE wants to take me. Thats not going to happen every day at a certain time. Carpool or finding someone to drive me wouldn't work well either, I live pretty far out right now.

Trust me I have NO aversion to retail, or even fast food. I've been a cook, a dishwasher, a paperboy, etc. I agree with you all that you have to start somewhere and work your way up, I'm definately not sitting here wishing myself into a fortune without being willing to build it for myself. If that is the impression i've given you all i'm mortified!

I really did burn all my bridges though, I can't go stay with any family, can't borrow money to fix my car or for anything else, etc. If I find a way out, it has to be from this house . Which dosn't give me a lot of hope.