Bass.. I really feel your loss. I had a very dear friend pass the same way. It was all so sudden, and I felt so helpless. You want to do something, but can not. It was something that was very difficult for me, and I have gone through the same feelings you are having now. The memories I have of our friendship have helped me a great deal, and for the last 10 years since his passing, we have had an annual memorial, and fundraiser in his name. It helps a great deal to have something like this to look forward to, its like going home to be with a friend each year (its held in a city 350 miles away) and I look forward to it.

We raise money for the cancer foundation, and talk and remember our good friend, son, and brother. It truly is like going home to visit him each year, for we know he is there is spirit. I hope you can do something similar..

My deepest sympathy goes out to you.. take good care of those memories.